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“I am an accomplice in my own frustration…” – Peter Shaffer

The last couple of days have been difficult for me. I’ve been thinking a lot of things that I’m not overly sure how to vocalize, which is incredibly frustrating to me because I have people that will (and want to) listen. I guess I’ve just felt like a bad person. There really isn’t another way to say it. I feel like I’m a brat, someone that is extremely judgmental, and selfish.

These are all things that I never want to be! Or at least things that I don’t want to associate fully with my personality. Everyone is judgmental and selfish at times, and the brat comes out in all of us at some point, but I feel like it’s more often for me than others.

I know comparing myself to another person is not good. It takes all kinds of people to make the world an interesting place, right? But like… would it kill me to reply to a group text message so I don’t hurt someone’s feelings? Even if they don’t mention hurt feelings, showing excitement for another person, which literally takes 30 seconds of my time, is something that I should do.

And getting rid of the inner judgment of others when they do things that I wouldn’t do, or heaven forbid, DIFFERENTLY than I would do… Or something that I don’t understand WHY they’d do it… I don’t know. I’m not even sure if this makes sense, truthfully, just needed a place to get the words out where I could delete as needed when I DIDN’T make sense… and not worry about trying to make it coherent for anyone else.

I’m going to keep this in the forefront of my mind and work on these things that bother me, so hopefully, I can overcome them.

4th Annual 31 Horror Movies in October (2014)

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01) The Seasoning House: I wouldn’t actually classify this as a horror movie, other than one or two fairly gory scenes. It’s more of a thriller with disturbing content. The Netflix synopsis was WAY off (something about “The only thing that can save them is what’s hidden in the walls that trap them.”); it’s actually about human sexual slavery. It was very well acted and suspenseful so, if you’re up for that heavy of a subject, I do recommend it.

02) Apartment 1303: Truly, truly awful. The timelines made no sense, the characters were completely unbelievable and unlikeable, and there are scenes where it’s obvious that something was edited out that was pivotal to the scene. It’s not even a “it’s so bad, it’s good” thing. It’s just bad.

03) Oculus: I liked Oculus a lot. It was really creepy, had…

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And hello from sunny Las Vegas…

Well, it’s sort of sunny. It’s more like barely sunny and about 50* outside. 

I’m on yet another business trip, and instead of hating it because I had no control over anything when I was in LA, I’m hating it because I have the damn flu and feel like death on toast. It’s so hard to be away from home for me. I’m such a home body, and not only that, but have done studies recently about introverted personalities and how they’re affected by crowds and the such.

Now, I’ve never considered myself to be an introvert. Then back in January, one of my best friends was talking about introvert personalities vs. extrovert and what it actually means.

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